Anger

Anger
noun
a strong feeling of annoyance, displeasure, or hostility.

I don't consider myself to be an angry person, and in fact, I consider myself to be fairly positive and even-keeled.  However, a recent event has caused me to become quite angry...literally over several days, I find myself still fuming a bit.  The event in itself has caused me to be angry and my anger for so many days is causing me to be angry.  Suffice it to say, I'm a hot mess.

I'm angry because I feel I have been wronged.  And not just wronged but told that I am less than criminal...OUCH!  Why do words hurt?  It bothers me when words hurt others; I call those people "sensitive".  But now I am dealing with hurt feelings over <gasp> words!  Am I "sensitive"?  My recent discontentment would say yes.  Sigh.

My wife has asked me why I'm still so mad.  She's asked me to think about what role I may have played in this.  She's asked me if being angry is doing any good for the situation, for me, for anything.  I don't want to hear it.

My daughter spoke truth, logic, and kindness to me.  I don't want to hear it.

And now here I am...knowing I shouldn't be upset but still reeling a bit.  I've prayed about it.  Slept on it.  Talked about it.  And I do believe I am getting better, getting over it, but I'm still not quite there.

Have you ever been so angry you couldn't let go of it?  Did you refer to it as righteous indignation as I have?  It's been decades since I've felt this way, and I pray it's decades before I feel this way again.

Here's to working through this and getting past, one step at a time.

Best!

DK